Janet & I have split up. Janet, for those who don't know her, is a most wonderful human being. Beautiful, delightful and absolutely a pleasure to be with. We've been to some lovely places together and shared uncounted hours exploring each other. I miss her, I love her dearly.
I'm not sure whether the strains of living so far apart (she in Geneva; I in Bristol) got to us, or at least prevented us from reconciling our differences. (Proximity is a wonderful salve). Or, whether our differences in relationship philosophy really are irreconcilable. Or perhaps it is this simple: we want different things in this life. Hold different ideas of what is important to us personally.
To whom it may concern. Janet has shown herself to be a profoundly thoughtful, intelligent, beautiful and loving creature. Janet is creative, practical, unique, witty, thoughtful, resourceful, personal and very special. Janet's cuddles are totally natural, no artifical additives and nothing taken away. Janet's companionship is exceptionally satisfying. She is a highly recommended ingredient which will turn any ordinary dish into a profoundly life enhancing one. I do not hesitate to recommend her affections, if you are lucky enough to be offered them. Sincerely, -J-
Actually splitting up was painful at first, but quickly became rejuvenating. To be free to express myself without fear of hurting her because of the fragility of our hopes, and it seemed the same for her too. It was the right thing to do. I do feel a certain emptiness now.
For me this seems to be a time of letting go.
I have often felt a sense of failure, at explaining my views, my desires, my dreams, my methods, my motivations. Who could fail to want me who truly understood me? Well, perhaps its time to admit that maybe someone might actually be bright enough to see me as I am, and still choose something else after all!
We spent a wonderful week together afterwards. In that time I showed her more of what I am and wish to be. We spent nearly all that week together, knowing it was our last that we have planned. It was a pleasure-filled experience indeed. Emotion, poignancy and happy day to day togetherness expressed just as they are.
I discovered that what we have left after deciding to travel our separate romantic paths is... still wonderful. What a lovely thing to know!